There’s so much going on in my life right now…. it feels like someone else is in control and I’m just hanging on and trying to survive the ride.
I wish I could turn back time and start life all over again……. but when did time ever listen to the likes of me.
There are two roads down which the future can go……. but then both roads lead to pain and heartache.
Letting go is going to cause a lot of pain………. but holding on is going to be so much worse.
I avoid her eyes because I can see the pain……. and I know exactly who put it there.
Life right now isn’t what I ever dreamed it would be…… but then life’s a bitch anyway.
I want to just end it all……….. and take control for one last time.
TheKillRomeoProject 
May 9, 2008 at 5:56 am |
Take control by ending it all? That’s a thought that crossed my mind many time over the past few weeks. It somehow seems easier that way doesn’t it? Remember the saying, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
May 12, 2008 at 7:29 am |
This exactly happening with me right same. Every word you wrote seems like describing me and my life right now, I too have 2 roads for me aswell, but guess what..I dont even have choice to choose!!! Exactly life is a bitch… and even more than that.
And Ending youself??? :O, Ok I know its very easy to think and this is what most people think to do, even I had once thought but never dared! And I can’t even die because so many other’s life dependant on me and I’m not a favour of ending the life.
Few days back I was the 1 who saved someone from ending thier life, if I wasn’t there for her that time, she would’ve not been living today, please don’t do this its seriuosly no help. Think about your wife, your friends, the people who are your own (Well, I know that only some true people are our own) but still.
You know what I’ve few days back posted the same topic about commiting suicide, i’m not sure if you read it or not, well here’s the link:
http://ikasworld.wordpress.com/2008/05/05/commiting-suicide-forbidden/
Maybe this helps.
And I can say I’m gonig through same situations or worse and this thought have crossed my mind but still can’t do it because the day i’ll do this, not me but someone else will die aswell and right now I cant afford to kill that person, for whom I living only.
hope not mine but atleast your life comes back to normal 🙂
with lots of good wishes 🙂
May 12, 2008 at 7:30 am |
And between, wow I managed to read your whole blog in just 3 days 🙂 what a progress 😀 😉 …Keep writing more 🙂
May 15, 2008 at 7:55 am |
I hope you do take Control……. good luck. off topic a distraction for you… i have tagged you (read my blog)
May 15, 2008 at 9:53 am |
hey not fair! I tagged you too….
By the way, why not just follow up on the taggin for the heck of it…. you might need to right now.
May 21, 2008 at 5:22 am |
Santhoshi and Shanuki….. not very savvy about this tagging business….. maybe you can offer some tips…… 🙂
May 21, 2008 at 9:53 am |
Very simple. Your just write a post about ten random things which make you happy in life… then you tag a few other bloggers who have not already been tagged. hemm by now most have been tagged i think so just do the post. I tell you it will distract you ….. 🙂 try…
May 21, 2008 at 10:49 am |
Already started the list…….so watch out for it soon 🙂